Epiphany

Hello friends. I have no excuse for my absence and I apologize. Things will get back on track for me and this blog too. So after a crappy week I was rewarded with an epiphany. Last night I was feeling down, stressed out, and frustrated. As usual when I want a break from reality I head to YouTube. There, I found a new video in my subscription box. Now before you judge there is more to the story. It was a PMS video from Lisa Eldridge. Ok so now you see my disclaimer. You might be thinking what kind of an epiphany did you get from that video? The realization that yes periods suck, but I can put on lipstick to make it better. No not even close. While watching this video I was struck by the passion Lisa showed when talking about her best tips to help the "PMS" face. I have always loved her videos, but for some reason I just felt her love for makeup more than ever and I realized something. I want to be good at something and passionate about something like Lisa so I can be happy doing it in life. Now that was first aha moment in the 12 hours of this story. So I took it and held on to it.

 Fast forward to this morning. I was drinking my green tea and clicked onto good ol YouTube again. There i saw a new clothesencounters video. After watching this I thought hey I want to watch some more fashion videos now that I'm in the mood for it. I searched Chriselle Lim as I have only seen a few of her videos, but knew she was a fashion queen on YouTube. For some reason I never explored her channel. The first video of here that caught my eye was her Draw my Life tag. And that's when epiphany #2 occurred. I listened to her story and loved it. I felt as if we are very similar. She said she lacked confidence and then found clothes as her armor. She took me through her fashion journey and I just was in awe. This woman made something of herself. She took what she loved doing and ran with it. Chriselle in high school is me now. I have very low self esteem, a growing love for clothing, and a lot of passion. Ok so let me slow down. As I'm typing this all I sound crazy, but I don't care because I want to mark down this moment. This moment when I felt whole. And I felt like I could do something in my life. I'm not going to force myself to do something people tell me to do. I'm going to do what makes me happy, makes me good again. Because I have been bad for so long.

So now where do I go from here? Well now I feel as if I know something more about myself, I have something to work for. I have something to gain. So I will work hard. I will do things to make me happy, make me strive for my dream. I feel like its all falling into place.

Thank you

Brianna