Makeup = Confidence ?

So for about three years I have worn makeup. I started when I was around thirteen, pilling on blue mascara from Benefit because the lady put it on me and I liked it. I still think it's pretty cool so I might have to pick that up. Anyway then when I was fourteen I started doing more by adding foundation, concealer, and eyeliner to the mix. I was having a blast trying things out. Before I started using makeup I hated it. I remember my friends tried to put eyeliner on me once and I refused, but they finally did and I hated it. I thought I looked so strange and it hurt. Probably because it was a cheapy F21 eyeliner and that was all I wore so that was not a good experience. My love of makeup grew and so did my confidence with it on. But when I took off the makeup I felt different, less acceptable. I have had acne since I was around eleven so that has always hurt my self-esteem. Makeup fixed that for the periods of time I wore it. But makeup didn't permanently help my confidence. I thought I looked completely different with and without makeup. And I felt different.
I got teased for my acne and I felt it made me gross. Like I had to wear makeup so people wouldn't see my ugly skin. I didn't realize this then, but mostly everyone suffers from breakouts at one time or another. But when your like me and it stays with you for over five years, it hurts you. I could go without eye makeup, but I could never leave my house without face makeup. It was becoming a problem. Finally something hit me. It might have been that I just stopped caring so much and dared to face the world without makeup. And when no one said anything I knew it wasn't a big deal to others. Only to me. Guy and girl friends of mine told me I don't look any different without makeup. So has my brother, uncle, and dad. They don't see why I wear it. And sometimes I don't either. But I realize I love it. Applying it, making new looks, trying new products. I love it all. But now I have a healthier perspective on makeup. I go out without makeup all the time. Now I do my makeup when I have time and actually feel like doing it. Its less of a chore and more of something fun.
People won't stop liking you because you don't wear makeup or have acne. I learned that people care way more about the person you are deep down inside. So makeup isn't something I so much  need anymore as it's something I like. Something I want to do to make me happy. Brave your own fears. If its not wearing makeup, start small. Go to the drugstore or gym without makeup. Then I promise after several times of doing it, you will feel good sporting a makeup-free face. I still have breakouts, but I'm working on a new skincare to help even more as I really want clear skin. I have wanted it for a long time and there is nothing wrong with that. I still go out without makeup. Now when I look into the mirror and see my bare face I don't think "Oh gosh I look hideous". Instead I see my eyes which are one of my favorite things about myself. I see my full eyebrows and goofy smile. I don't see the flaws as much as I see the things I love about myself. I'm still not 100% there, but its definitely better. "Everybody is beautiful to someone" -Kevin Aucoin.